August Already?!

I'm alive. And a mom! I was reading my last post, and actually laughed. Wow, I was suffering.





A few days later, Samantha made her entrance. June 27, 2008 at 6:24pm to be exact! Labor was nothing like I expected. I was literally terrified about what the experience would be, but once I received the epideral, I was fine... and it only took about half an hour of pushing to bring her into the world. All the scary stories were thrown out the window, because I did great, and enjoyed every minute, knowing that within the day I was going to be a mother officially. I really found it amazing how this little person was growing inside of me for 9 months, and then finally I got to see her, hold her, kiss her, and know that she was healthy.





Anyway- Samantha is now almost 6 weeks old. Growing like a weed. Learning everyday. She's beautiful.

I am learning everyday about my little girl, and motherhood. I am suffering, severely from post partum depression. I never imagined I could feel so horrible when I have so much to enjoy. Hopefully all the meds and counseling will start getting things in order, and I'll be back to "normal" soon.

I was reading my wonderful friend's blog, Miss Mims :) and she had 10 things people may not know about her... so here are mine.

1. When I was pregnant, I hoped that my child wouldn't look like me. Not because I have a complex with the way I look, but that I didn't want her to resemble my egg & sperm donor. Now that she's here, I'm excited that she looks like me, and can't wait to see her grow up.

2. I'm obsessed with checking the mail... whether it's snail mail, email, or text messaging.

3. I hate the fact that I haven't learned sign language yet. I moved to South Dakota with the hopes of earning a degree in Sign Language, but then life happened in a bad way, and I never did. I know that I'm young and that I have my whole life to learn it, but it just annoys me that I haven't as of yet.

4. I always wished that I was a twin. I think it's because my brother's are twins, and I always felt left out.

5. I clean my ears out every single day. If I go a day without doing so, I go crazy and feel dirty.

6. I'm addicted to shopping. My credit card bills show this. I don't really buy things for myself either... but feel like I need to spend money every day, even if all I purchase is a meal or a pack of gum.

7. As much as I hated being pregnant, I miss it. I miss the kicks and punches, the movement, the pain, and the feeling of life inside me.

8. I sing when no one is around. About everything. My life is like a musical when I'm alone.

9. I can't stand having my feet covered. Every moment that is avaliable, my shoes are off. I hate wearing socks. And the sheets must not cover my feet at night.

10. I'm terrified of growing old. The elderly make me sad. I don't know why. I think it's because I'm terrified of being alone, losing my loved ones, and I'm totally afraid of what the future will hold.

Well, that's it. My update. Let's see if I can keep up with this!

Melissa