It was a pleasant experience... $10 in the slot machine, the whole time watching to see if the Wizard of Oz machine would open up (in my head thinking, come on hemrodial woman who just needs to move and possibly poop- GET UP!) ... and 1600 quarters later, I have $400 more! Great Feeling! We usually go to the casino, spending what we would if were to go to the movies, never winning, usually only breaking even... so woohoo!
My darling Samantha is in Augusta with my parents. Today was the first day I didn't cry all day. I feel like a bad mother, having to send her away because I'm too sick to take care of her. Plus, my first mother's day, and my baby is far away. I keep telling myself it's all for the best, and she'll be back in about 10 days... but it's hard. My responsibility, my daily routine, all gone. I have Maggie to focus on, and myself to get to feeling better and to get rest. Dr. Landeen said she doesn't want me ending up in triage or the hospital again. (I was there for 2 days last week.) I'm 33, almost 34 weeks, and on Tuesday, we're going to make more concrete decisions on when Maggie will make her entrance into the world. Although, I'm willing to suffer more if it means no amnioscentisis. I've only ever heard negative things about it.
In lighter news: I received a card in the mail today. The return address was "Michael Badass Anderson." A mother's day card from my brother. I was honestly shocked, and giddy about it.
Melissa
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