Not Myself.

For the past two months I've felt a little distanced from blogging. I blog for myself, but I know it's public... and since I wasn't announcing our little addition yet, felt like I didn't have much to talk to... especially since this baby has been a major part of my life since we found out we were pregnant.

Now, I feel like I can't blog like I want to, because my emotions are in a ridiculous knot. I miss my kids. More than words can ever explain. My life has become a curtain of sadness. I cry all the time. I want Samantha and Maggie.

I know I have to feel better and take care of myself and baby #3... I know, I know, I know. I know I can't take care of them properly because I am so sick. But I feel so guilty that they aren't with me... so guilty that I have to depend on everyone else to take care of them.

I'm not myself without my kids. I need to feel better.

Melissa