Rut.

It's been a while since I've blogged.

Life goes on.

Arm pain/numbness/dead feeling is GONE!

I only deal with a little pain at night... I'm still getting strength back in my arm, because muscle was removed.

A surgery that actually worked! Woohoo!

 

Sam's doing well in school.

Maggie's speech is improving.

Gavin is testing my patience at every turn.

And we are going to Disney in a few weeks!

 

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So, life continues.

And I'm getting exhausted from the monotony of it all.

Yes, I have three amazing children.

And it is a joy to watch them grow and learn.

 

But some days, I wonder if there is more.

Selfish? Maybe.

But it becomes depressing when sometimes all it feels that I do is clean, and cook, and do laundry, and pay bills, and stress out about finances, and deal with poop.

Am I a maid or a mom?

There are moments when I feel more of a maid.

The kids are becoming more independent and don't want to play with Mommy as much.

So, there's me, cleaning & arguing with the kids about cleaning.

 

Oh, another load of laundry? Of course.

Oh, they need something to eat? I'm on it.

 

When does the time come when I feel like an individual again?

Someone creative. Someone needed for more than feeding/bathing/cleaning/laundering?

 

I'm in a rut.

I need a refresh button.

Maybe this trip to Disney will do the trick.

 

Oh, and look at that... more laundry.

 

Melissa