Crystal Ball.

I wish I had a crystal ball.

A real one, like in cartoons.

I'd take a look at my future.

That way I wouldn't be living with so much angst right now.

Confusion is a part of my daily life.

I'm confused about my marriage.

I'm confused about the future.

Damnit, future!

Why must you be so damn complicated?

And so unknown?

I want to know what to expect.

And how to handle things NOW.

I'm tired of living with confusion.

I'm tired of being sad.

I'm tired of arguments.

I know, I know... stop arguing.

Stop being sad.

Is it that easy?

Just stop?

Stopping would mean no speaking.

Stopping would mean pretending to be happy.

C'mon, crystal ball.
Where are you?

Tell me what to do.

Because I sure as hell don't know what to do.

Melissa